Disappointed

Is it alright to be disappointed with God's decision? I am not disappointed with Him but just his decision... is it ok? Sigh... sometimes I wonder, why is it so difficult to know what God really wants in my life. What is his assignment for me?

Since I have heard so clearly on the direction to move towards... why suddenly end result is so different from what I heard?? I guess the conclusion as to why there is such a big difference between God's decision and my sensing is ... (i) I only hear what I want to hear; (ii) I have not seek God enough to know his heart; (iii) I have not a good enough relationship with God to know His assignment for me.

Yes... everything boils down to how intimate I am with my Heavenly Daddy. Now I really feel stupid and inadequate. I have not once heard correctly about my OWN assignment from God. Yet, I have heard correctly more than once about God's assignment for others =((

Big Daddy... how leh?

Sigh... back to work.