In the blues

Oh man... seriously... I don't know why I am feeling so blue. It's not the time of the month. Maybe it's the ordeal I went through on Friday nite. Delayed reaction so to speak. Loads of people asked me how I am... some even asked me if I cried... no... I did not cry. The thought never did cross my mind and did not feel the need to. But... yar... I am feeling sad because my poor new "hubby", by new car, Honda City (BTW, I call him Mr. Beeps) has been violated... twice.

The first time was by some joker who envies another for having a new car and decided to give it a small facelift by scratching it from back to front with a key, presumably. All's not lost, I went home, in my feverish state (was down with a cold then), I diligently polished that scratched potion. It was quite a well done job because a lot of people said they can't see the scratch. It was all fine and dandy thereafter.

Sigh... friday... some psycho-maniac decided to smash my car window and grab my bag. I would have happily given it to him if he has asked for it. I actually fought with that fella, forgetting that he has a "colleague" with him and that "colleague" was just right in front of my car. Aniwei... can't really recall what went through my mind then... but just to spice up (and cheer meself up), I would like to imagine that this thought was going through my mind then... "MY CAR WINDOW.... awwwww....... sakit hati" Hahaha.... but seriously, I think I would have not fought with him if he has asked for my bag... but why break my window????

Aniwei.... SIGGHHHHH..... saw uncle steven at BJ's car park... walked through the stadium... all the way across the bridge (over the biggie big monsoon drain) and to the station (he usually visits the toilet 1st)... and then onto the train outbound to KL. Didn't talk much.

He asked me while we were passing the stadium, "So, how's your car?"
Me answered "Ok."
He asked "Got it repaired so fast?"
Me answered "It was not that fast... I was at the service centre since 7.25am and I only got my car 12 plus pm. I am not happy with their work!"
Then he asked "Which service centre is that? Section 17?"
Me answered "Old Klang Road. I didn't know they have one in Section 17"
He said "Toyota has one just right opposite church. I will sent my car over there and just walk across to church to do my stuff there"
Me answered "Ok"

That was it... right until when we reach Pudu station, I thought I better break the silence.
"Uncle, guess where I went on Sunday. I visited a church in Subang...blah blah blah...."
And he went "Really? Blah blah blah....."

Then we reached MJ, we got off the train... silence....

He said bye but I told him I have to go to the bank... so we walked together...

Then uncle asked, "Lina, why are you so quiet today? Are you ok?"
Me answered "Ok"
Then he gave me this look... and I said "Nothing, uncle. I'm ok"
I thought I better chat more with him... and asked him"So, uncle. Where did you take your DEW crew to yesterday?"
And then he said "Go karting in Shah Alam."
And I went "Wow.... so fun... I went hiking in Bukit Gasing."
And he said "Really? Good. Go Karting is so fun..... blah blah blah...."
And we went our separate ways as we arrived his office.

Yar... I don't really know why I am so quiet leh... even my colleagues and staff are noticing it. I think I know why... I have lost something which I never had in the first place. Something which I really really wanted but never had it and I guess I will never have it. Truth and reality hurts.