Tribute to Aunty Ruby

Aunty Ruby... she sent me a sms just 2-3 weeks ago, telling me that her daughter will be sending her to a home so that she can get full time care from the doctor and nurse. She said she will write to me and Ivy because her daughter is getting her a laptop. She passed away in her sleep and her daughter/nurse (don't know which one) found her this morning 7am London time.

Sigh... I have looked to her as my grandma. My maternal grandma passed away when I was 10 years old. She was a wonderful lady. I never knew my paternal grandma. Aunty Ruby brought back the joy of having a grandma again.

I sat down in office trying to write a tribute to her using her name and I only started with R... and I am not done yet. This is my unfinished tribute...

Ruby…name which describes her all too well…
She creates a Racket wherever she goes… not in a bad sense but in a good sense.
She has the Radiance of the sun in a clear blue sky

I have got so much to say to her... and she's no longer here. I have yet another regret... regret which came only upon death of a closed one. I never seem to learn to appreciate a friend... a close friend whilst he or she is still alive.

Sigh... now I know why I could not sleep a wink last night. God kept me awake and kept me on a vigil for my beloved Aunty Ruby.

These are yet again my regrets...

Regret that I have not appreciated her as I should have. She's always worried about Ivy and I... she said she will look for life partners for us.
Regret that I have not brought her along with me to KK when I was there climbing the mountain. She asked if she could come along but I told her no... she might not take the trip, I said to her. She said she only wants to follow along and definitely will not attempt the mountain (yar... she's quite a funny gal.)
Regret that I have not called her at all. She has called me countless times from London.
Regret that I have not gone to visit her in London as I have promised her. She asked me all the time when she called me and I have always ended the conversation promising her I will visit her.
Regrets after regrets... never ending... I love you Aunty (Grandma) Ruby.