Mulling... and mulling...

What am I mulling about? My weight gained lor... =(( Aish... I really can't believe this. Actually I can... the amount of sugar and carbo I have gulped down with no exercise (except for a single hike up Ungku Busu and 2 days of brisk walking with my mom around my housing taman) and inactivity (loads of zzzzz)from my 10 off days is proving its dominance over my body. WAAAAH...

Sigh... my realisation of my weight gained came yesterday evening. I was preparing dinner (decided to have porridge) and as the pot is boiling, I went to take my shower... after shower, I decided to weigh myself... this is my sms reply to Alvin... "Okidoki. Enjoy e ride :)I hv just cooked dinner but realised I can't eat after stepping on e weighing machine =/ aniwei, have a safe trip 'home'" uh huh =((
I have put on 2 kgs. This was his reply... (so sweet of him) "It's all in the mind. Jesus loves you, all extra kgs too. Cheers" And this was my reply to him "Hahaha... It's wat's in e mind tat makes all e difference ;) it's 4 health reasons - it's better 2 be slightly underweight. Really one..."

It's actually true. I need to keep the weights off for health reasons. Both my parents have heart problem. If I take after my dad ... he has diabetes, heart problems (blocked arteries), high blood pressure and cholestrol. If my mom... heart problems (blocked arteries & weak "pump"), thyroid, cholestrol & low blood pressure. So, you see... weight has to be kept as low as possible. It has been medically proven that it is better to be slightly underweight (not too much) than on the dot and definitely not good to be overweight.

So, what's my plan for the next 2 weeks... At first I planned to skip dinner all the way... or probably start on the South Beach Diet program today... 2 weeks purely vegetable and meat... no salt... no sugar (i.e. water or tea/coffee kosong)and oil... only sunflower or olive oil. No fruits, no carbo and no vege like carrots and sengkuang or mengkuang or tomatoes etc (those which have sugar).

But... horror of all horrors, I forgot about all my dinner appointments... tomorrow (dinner before meeting in church), wednesday (dinner at Paul's place... actually I only found out about this today), thursday (Valentines' cum CNY dinner at my place)and Friday (dinner with CG at my place). Saturday... whole day class (means makan makan again during tea breaks and lunch break) and Sunday... (lunch, teatime and dinner). Sigh... So how? I wonder if all these people mind eating just vege and meat with no carbo? Hmm... Sigh...

One other reason... actually only reason why I really really need to lose these extra kgs and more is because I have a wedding to attend. I am the wedding co-ordinator for Paul and Em's wedding on 2nd March... and I just bought a dress for the occassion and ... I don't think I can fit leh... and my trousers which I planned to wear for the afternoon wedding is already quite fitting as it is...

Maybe I should just cancel all my appointments and lock myself up at home. Hmmm... Can't... got too much goodies at home... I need to get people in to help me to eat them. Ahem... sorry... I mean "share" the calories and fat =D

So... dear Lord... I know you love me and all the extra kgs... but I need to lose these extra kgs... and probably 2 more...

Got to go... phone calls are coming in and not forgetting emails.